I am angry and hurt!

I really don’t have anymore words to say and just going to ramble. I pray to my ancestors to help me get thru the anger and hurt I am feeling about the recent events in my area. I really don’t like the feelings I have. It’s not normal for me. There are so many in this country (including friends and family) that are “in denial” and that hurts more than the “hate” I am seeing. The denial is really a “lethal weapon” that we can’t control and most of the time we can’t see it.  I love this country and wouldn’t live anywhere else. I have really no desire to ever leave this country. But, White America, including those hiding behind the hoods or blatantly showing their faces, or those in denial has a fear of people of color, not just African Americans, simply everyone that isn’t white. Those folks will never see what I and others are seeing or feeling until it hits their front door. Then it’s too late. Daily folks across the country are realizing that something is not right with the country. We are seeing people go to the dark side. 

Yesterday, three people died and someone or more than one person should be accountable for their deaths. Those in this country have a choice you either denounced the actions immediately or you are with them. There is no other chances and you can’t make it up two or three days later. It’s chaotic energy and its going to get worst since we have a chaos magician in charge.  It’s wrong and people literally are begging the leaders to step up. Things will get worst if we do not nip this in the bud now. The fear factor is on the rise.

I am angry and hurt. 

A daughter died yesterday and children lost their father yesterday. 

I am not in favor of moving the statue – I want people to know the history and understand the history of ugliness of white supremacy, the civil war and the evils of slavery in this country. But now I see the White Nationalist and Supremacy individuals see it as a shrine and they are bowing down to it. That is why they insisted on holding their rally at Emancipation Park and didn’t care about anyone’s safety not even their own. They pounced their butts right into Charlottesville -ARMED  or better said “locked and loaded” and carrying the Confederate Battle Flag.  When you idolize something that much that you build hate inside and violence that you can’t control. There is need for a change. You should not  be proud when you are operating in a violent mode. 

You are Domestic Terrorists!

We know just as they know this is not about any southern heritage. That is the biggest crock of mess I have every heard. They look stupid when they even try to tell that story. There is no heritage in slavery, owning other human beings, tearing families apart. There is no state rights when they change the laws as needed to keep people in bondage. No, it’s about control & greed.  How many years has this country reaped the free labor of slaves? Add that up and tell me about how your ancestors benefited. As I have mentioned before America has never took a stance on slavery, neither have Christians. Not one African American that I know of is asking White America for any darn thing. All we want is to just be treated fair, stop denying, targeting, beating, and begin to treat us with respect, and don’t repeat history again. All lives matter. If you are not clear on what I am saying-just watch the news.

Again denial about the real history of this country-equals denial about slavery and the treatment of anyone that is not white!  This country can not allow the White Supremacists and Nationalists to continue on. We don’t want to go down the path that is being laid out. I fear the 21st century will see another Civil War on our own land if we do not get this under control. Our ancestors have been through this and there is no reason to repeat it. 

I am angry and hurt. 

A daughter died yesterday and children lost their father yesterday. 

There are other rally’s already scheduled (Texas A & T-9/11, 9/12 U of Florida). How many more will have to “die”, no,  be murdered before the leaders of my beloved country take a stand and not let history repeat itself.  I thank the Governor of Virginia and others who denounced the activities of 8/12/17 in Charlottesville. 

#RIPHeatherH!

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About familytreegirl

Shelley Murphy, aka “familytreegirl”, a native of Michigan residing in Central Virginia, Shelley has been an avid genealogist for over 25+ years researching the Davis, Marsh, Goens/Goins/Goings, Roper, Boyer, Worden, Cureton, and Murphy family lines. She is a Coordinator and faculty for the Midwest African American Genealogy Institute (MAAGI), presents Genealogy 101 workshops at the local community college, state and national genealogy conferences. She holds a Doctorate of Management in Organizational Leadership and works as an adjunct professor for Averett University. Murphy is known for her inspiring and interactive “Getting Started” Methods and Strategies for genealogy research, “Time and File management” along with interesting problem-solving methodology lectures. Shelley currently has 20+ publications with Charlottesville Genealogy Examiner and the Central Virginia Heritage, a publication of the Central Virginia Genealogical Association. She is an instructor for the Midwest African American Genealogy Institute (MAAGI). Doctor of Management in Organizational Leadership, Adjunct Professor, Professional Genealogist. Volunteers for American Red Cross as a Disaster Services Instructor, facilitates financial education workshops for the last 8 years, and former licensed Real Estate Broker
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3 Responses to I am angry and hurt!

  1. We need to look to the young children. Kindergarten and younger, they don’t see skin color. In the words of a song from “South Pacific” “you’ve got to be carefully taught to be afraid of people whose skin is a different shade.”

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